She's glad her mom died. Painful reveals from child star Jennette McCurdy's raw memoir.

Jennette McCurdy rose to fame during Nickelodeon's reign of tv success in the 2000s. Starring on iCarley and Sam and Cat, she was a staple in these loud and crazy shows, seemingly a rising and successful happy-go-lucky star.

Through her recent best-selling memoir, which sold out within 24 hours at many retailers, she revealed her disturbing childhood at the hands of her abusive mother, who manipulated and controlled her well into adulthood. Her mother died from cancer in 2013.

Some of the most revealing (and incredibly disturbing) revelations from her raw writing include everything from eating disorder grooming to insisting on showering her daughter well into her teen years.

When Jennette began to develop breasts at age 12, she panicked assuming they were cancerous growths since her mother had breast cancer since Jennette was 2. Her mother assured her it was normal but told her there was a way to restrict growth - through calorie restriction.

And so her lifelong battle with anorexia began. (Which eventually morphed to include bulimia.) At age 12 she weighed 61 pounds. Her mother created a plan restricting her to 1,000 calories a day and Jennette would often eat only half of her allotted food.

Her mom obsessed over her own cancer diagnosis, requiring the family to continually watch a home video she made about her cancer, which praised her oldest son for being upset about it while berating a 2-year-old Jennette for "not caring enough."

Her mother forced her into child acting at age 6, a move that Jennette had shown no interest in. After losing an audition for a music video, her mom made her take 14 dance classes a week and book other acting jobs to pay for them.

Consistent with other Nickelodeon actors' accounts, McCurdy talked of disturbing behavior from Dan Schneider, (called "the creator" in her book.) He forced her to drink underage, massaged her shoulders, and angrily critiqued her first kiss forcing her to reshoot it over & over.

One of the most disturbing accounts was being showered by her mom until she was 17 years old. (Her mom claimed it was to wash her hair properly.) But she also did this to Jennette's bothers, even making them shower together until her brother was a teenager.

After showers, her mother would examine her breasts and "butt front". McCurdy said during these exams she went into "Fantasyland" and disconnected in her mind. This is a memoir written with humor and grace by a strong woman who earned the right to the title.